Good News

Royal wedding..... OMG big deal... I have been complaining about it the whole week... which day is the wedding again? Friday 29/04/11
I asked the next day...Which day is the wedding? "FRIDAY!! Shannon i thought you know!!" a friend shouted at me... yes yes yes i knew but i don't...
"It is going to be a night mare to travel in London on the day..." a friend said... i then asked AGAIN"why?'  i was asking a punch on the face...
I went for it... OK... this is ridicules.. people are dying around the world, all British talks about is the wedding.... not only the British, half of the world watched the wedding, and some travelled just to be here... they even make a extra bank holiday for this wedding!!!!!!!
just an other relationship end up hearing the wedding bell.. OK a prince's wedding, he is not even the king!!! love and wedding is a big joke for me anyway.. because i just don't get it.... for me the most important 4 words in any marriage is " I'LL DO THE DISHES". I think what i found the most difficult with marriage is that we fall in love with a personality, but we must know how to live with a character.... I am difficult in both, so i never wish anyone will go through that with me...

Had a liter of new blood in my body yesterday.. woke up after a good night sleep, feel stronger!!! OK, lets catch up on what is going on around the world....went on Internet... almost every headline was about the wedding!!
"Damn i missed it............"i thought to myself with a bit of sarcasm... I didn't actually feel a bit of that Damn...

Then i cant help but turn on the TV, I watched the wedding replay, how can i not.. almost every channels was playing it... the pretty dress on Kate, the moment they kiss... the smile on every ones face,

I SMILED.....

There are way too many bad news now days, its troubling, and worrying...you switch on the TV, its all about problems.... 2012 end of the world is a thought that's in my head slowly taken over everything.... Now why was i complaining so much over a simply happy wedding...

That one smile on Kate's face, tells millions of story.... she is not the most beautiful girl in the world, its not because she is beautiful so William loves her, its because William loves her makes her the most beautiful...

Passion makes the world go round, love just makes it a safer place....I was happy to see the wedding replay, i was even happier to read all the comment of how proud the Brits are in a day like this...  this is a good news for a change that's on telly, and it truely made million of people happy... why not?!!!

LITLLEMISSSUNSHINE
XXX

Stay On The Ground....

Sunny weekend in London, couldn't get better than this, lunch with the girls from work... some I know very well, but some just who I work with, bonding lunch Alex quoted.
It was such a great idea, even the weather decided to change just when the lunch ended... It starts to pour!! All good things must come to an end... the lunch was filled with love, laughter and joys, of course picking on Alex was the highlights!!!

So much of life in the elite night club, seeing all the beautiful people in blinks being greeted with VIP treatment from the hottest staff, with most expensive champagne flying in the room...I am very happy to know that me and my circle of friends are able to stay on the ground and be real...

THE GOOD THINGS in life, are not things...
Of course we all live in a society in which subjects are the only ones that are glorified. things such as  bags, shoes, cars, the amount of money we have, and other things tell some people who they are in society, truly if those are the only "good"things in a person's life then more than likely that person is not truly happy!!!

I'm going to Oslo for the weekend to spend sometime with Marte, I wanted to buy her fashion items she might love as a gift, in the end of the day girls like us, loves fashion... but instead Marte gave me a shopping list of salad sauce and snacks!!! that's it??? I asked myself..... and I smile.....

Marte, a beautiful girl who doesn't have a beautiful girls attitude! If there is character for her, she could be the bride in Kill Bill!! She is funny, loving, giving, driven and determine. straight forward and no bullshit.. people wont believe this is who she is by looking at her.. to today i still think she doesn't know how good she is just yet!!!
After living the colourful life of London, She had gone home in Oslo for her doctor career!She belongs to London city, she could flying high here with a different life to be with us, but she has chosen to stay on the ground...
Tough decision to make for a 24 yr old... but she did!!! and she is living by it everyday!!!

I want to get her some thing nice, don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with having nice things, I LOVE IT!! but nice things will give you a boost just like red bull, last for few hours few days... To me and Marte, the nicest thing that we have in life are the relationships we build with people, the love we are able to give and get back freely from and to the people that we care about. the positive impact we have on this world, the people we inspire and encourage, and the people who inspire and encourage us!!

Life in Asia, I often see picture of people convening on the ground, to work, to socialize and to eat. they are the people with strong roots in the earth, a Grounded-ness that appears both primal and noble at the same time, Marte has been traveling through Asia when she was young, I start to think as much a banana I am, yellow skin, white within.. she could be the other way round!!!

littlemisssunshine
xxx

Belle et Sébastien

Belle Et Sebastien, one of my favourite Cartoon, I was watching it since the age of 5... a french one funny enough.. Its a sign!!! I should really learn to speak it!!

Enjoyed my Sat night in, chatting about life with a friend, He then use a funny way/ french way to describe bad friends, "they are like cigarettes, one day we will die from it" he is so right!! There are people out there pretend to be my friends to only get something out of me, I don't mind people like that, but what I'm doing wrong it is that i always too nice to people without look deeper and see further who i am being nice to.. then i get disappointed and upset when i realise i mean so little to them...but when i think about it, i say to myself, Shannon once you are nice to these people you instantly sent out a friendship invitation... its up to them to turn up in your circle make you see that if they care! some do but not all of them, you can't expect anything from them.. let your brain do the work, you are a lot of thing but not stupid for sure.
What i learnt since last 2 months, many people did upset me, A LOT, but what i have built from the last 27 years, from being who I am and nice to people, has bring me more happiness than sadness.. Keep the good and quit cigarette!!!

I cried many times with Belle Et Sebastien, a simple cartoon about a young boy Sebastien and his best friend a Mountain dog Belle.

Sebastian is a good natured, kind hearted and energetic young boy, Since he was born, he has been living with his adoptive grandad in a village on Pyrenees mountains in France. children in town tease him because he doesn't have a real mother, his deepest desires are to find his mother and to have a good friend.

Belle, is a large white dog who escaped into french countryside. She is gentle and warmhearted, but her attempts to help those in need are misunderstood. she is labeled " the white monster"

Sebastian has became best friend with Belle, and to save Belle from an unjust fate, Sebastian leaves his adoptive family and begins traveling with Belle. They have many adventures as they elude the police and search for Sebastian's Mother!

Both are carrying sadness but fully fill each others life by real friendship and the happiness that comes with it!!

Moral of the story from both mine and using Bella Et Sebastien is, To live our life is to suffer, although we have a choice in what we suffer. Self-discipline or Disappointment.. the choice is yours.. all in your head...

Littlemisssunshine

xx

GOODNEWS.COM: Not an other post about FRIENDS..

GOODNEWS.COM: Not an other post about FRIENDS..: "Unfortunately I have been moving from city to city since i was a baby, I have no memories of friends who I grow up with, or never given the ..."

Not an other post about FRIENDS..

Unfortunately I have been moving from city to city since i was a baby, I have no memories of friends who I grow up with, or never given the chance to get to know them.
Fortunately I had made friends along my city hooping life style, many many of them, what I'm trying to say here is that, I love meeting new friends, I love discover them, what I love the most its that bringing everyone together new and old!!!

So this post its all about NEW FRIENDS!!

Helena introduce myself to a loving group, I grow to love everyone of them in such different way, I was new, but i was accepted, wont say instantly, but i got there eventually, I am very different, but we all been make different in our own way, I found people always like to judge when they meet new people, but i say give a go, ask a question.. you might missing out a friend for life here.. I sure hope people who got to know me sees me differently, and choose to become my friends.
what makes it work for me with this group is that, there are same old dramas will happen to all of us, group dilemmas.. personality conflicts.. but when we all get together, with or without one or two glass of vino we always have a blast!! but vino always help!!!!!  hahaha....

Most of them has been so supportive since I've got ill... some came through more than a friend that i know for years.... they don't have to, but they did they do and they will always...with what i am going through made me to learn an old friend in a new way, and welcome only the real ones new or old.... when i find a group of friends like this i smile from the bottom of my heart!!! like i said to Marte who brought me a ticket to go to oslo to see her, to have friends like her and the friends i have here, illness just to balance out how lucky i am as a cow!!!!

A new friendship is like an unripened fruit, it may become either an orange or a lemon,in my case I love both, I find friendship more like Red wine, raw when new, ripened with age!!!! my favourite!!!

So for this new friendship I have, thank you my little mouse Helena!! without you i wouldnt be half greek and smiling like the way i am right now....

littlemisssunshine
xxxxx

GOODNEWS.COM: FUNNY THOUGHT OF THE DAY.

GOODNEWS.COM: FUNNY THOUGHT OF THE DAY.: "BEFORE AFTER"

FUNNY THOUGHT OF THE DAY.

BEFORE

AFTER

GOODNEWS.COM: Pandora's BOX I have put u in. YES, that's the one...

GOODNEWS.COM: Pandora's BOX I have put u in. YES, that's the one...: "'In our area, Cant even go out for a run without make myself look good, I have to look good.' Sylvia said. ---why? why cant you be different..."

Pandora's BOX I have put u in. YES, that's the one!!

"In our area, Cant even go out for a run without make myself look good, I have to look good." Sylvia said. ---why? why cant you be different? try!!
"Oh, I know her, She just an IT girl, who hangs out in the night life industry" someone said. ---you don't even know her, get to know her then speak, no?
"I will never go and eat in this place, it looks just..... BAD" I often said, --- without even go to try at least once???
"Can't go with "sexy look" in a wedding, the priest will have a heart attack" a friend said in a wedding dress fitting. ----really? I will say try it, We are in 21st century... where sex sells!!

Putting people/things in a box way of thinking....

I have been feeling flat for few days, no emotions, but feeling low... effected by a friend... Have been thinking alot of what he said to me, "Stop blaming me, enough of blaming, You can write or say as much as you want as long as you are happy, but you cant always put people in a box, you are way to smart and certainly not a sour person."

So, I have been collecting thoughts of my own and others on this BOX subject!

He, I would rather not mention his name, a very private person. He has became a good friend a very close friend only since few months, He cares, he loves, he is different, just like me! He wanted to know me, study me, he made such an impact, we had spent almost everyday if it wasn't seeing each other, we would talked.
When we meet someone and found care and love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side, and yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left! how is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before it vanish so quickly? life moves very fast, it rushes from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds. In my case, that's what happened, Suddenly "puff", he has gone, disappeared in my life! not the 1st person I have met who is like that, but with him, It came as a shocked... If i did put him in that box and if only I couldn't careless then it wouldn't be a shocked..

I needed to know why, and what is wrong, and the only answers and news of him I've got, are from our friends! "He is under so much pressure with work, He is seeing a girl... " my answer was "AND?" why cant he tell me?? was he so busy that i don't get a text? I have an iPhone, blackberry, face book, email, its almost like i have set myself a system that for people to get hold of me with no problem! OK OK Shannon, be nice...I said to myself " You got to know him in a very short time, got to care about him because who he is, He was there for you at the moment of needs, he is a friend full stop!! "But all i needed its to hear from him... and my biggest question is that what has changed for him not to talk to me?? Because I'm sick, and not the fun Shannon he use to know???

I went dark.... bitter.....You are busy? I get it, I never need you to call me everyday and never will need it, your girlfriend doesn't like me? I don't care.. do you? Just tell me, from speaking everyday to no news, from asking my opinions when you feels down, no matter what time of the day is, to couldn't tell me that you are seeing someone.. that doesn't adds up!! I'm not a mind reader, I can only guess with my own side of story, even worst make things up in my head!

I know that I can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. Its one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but It's an other to think that yours is the only path.... I have never try to be right, and I have never wish everyone are the same, if we all been made and think the same way the world will be boring and won't move forward.
By radical, i understand one who goes too far, by conservative, one who does not go far enough, by reactionary, one who won't go at all.. and you my friend, you are reactionary! I'm not Radical, not Conservative certainly not Reactionary! I know so well that going to synagogue doesn't make you a Jew anymore than going to MC Donald makes you a hamburger..

I like to go on adventures, its like the lottery tickets, I lose always, but the greater the number of my tickets, the nearer my approach to this certainty... I always see the hopes! We often put our self and others in a box!! Me, i do it all the time, but mine is A PANDORA'S BOX..
Adventure without risk is Disneyland but Disneyland is not where everyone lives in!!!!!
My adventure is to take the risk of lose my friendship with many of you by putting you into that PANDORA'S BOX of mine... the world of ENVY, CRIME, HATE AND DISEASE live alongside of you, but HOPE, one day you will come talk to me, educate me so i will not put you in any box!

LITTLEMISSSUNSHINE

ALEX NICHOLL

Alex is in a great mood today, I asked "what happened to you?""It worries me when you are happy like this" specially when i know he has gave up his planned holiday to work." simply he replied "nothing" I dont really care whether i get an answer or not, but because he is happy, I was happy that i can take the piss..

"Why are you so mean to me always, Since i walked into the club, for 45mins, non of you has said anything nice to me, I have a new hair cut, and I dressed nicely, I have just been to a dinner, and, and, and, you FAT Shannon!! yes, you FAT" "ok, ok, Clam down,Clam down" as Marte will say!!!

Yes that is the person im going to write about, My boss, my closet friend - ALEX NICHOLL

LONDON, a city for me, where i don't know my neighbors, where people don't necessarily care if they know their neighbors or not. Once i had a delivery that I forgot to stay home and wait for, postman feel weird to leave it with my neighbors when I told him I dont know them... I'm missing things that truly fed my soil when i was younger, the exchange between people, the caring and the shared history with people..

I walked into Alex's life 6 years ago, when he had decided not to give me a job, because I'm not a 6 foot tall blonde bombshell! Now days he likes to cover that story by saying, oh well Shannon, you didnt exactly made an effort that day when you came for the interview!

Oh thanks!!! that made me feel so much better! A fashion criticism from Alex Nicholl, a pale looking skinny boy back then with bad skin, not to mention,who had slick comb back long hair, a wet look that had achived by using may be more then 2 tubs of hair gel, he must has done that to get a sponsership from Loreal, knowing alex, and his business brain! im suprise he hasn't timed to go to supermarket and be the 1st in line for the daily reduced section.. Bootleg jeans that clearly doesnt fit his chuncky shape of legs, and to go with it a pair of Kicker you only see it on a school boy!!

Now we all get a picture of how shocked I was when he try to cover his horrible action( employ people by looks) by criticis my fashion sense!

THE END.

Really? That is a horrible story to tell, this Alex Nicholl is not nice!!!hang on.there is more. To contiune,
The min he realised that 6 foot tall blonde bombshell can't get job done, or at least the ones he found, couldnt, that was the very next day, i got a call,  just when i sat in my flat feeling sorry and ugly... since then we become BFF!!

Really? not really!!! To get to know Alex was a loooooong journy... always feeling awkward and hard to impress him! took me a year to start to talk to him.. that was sitting in the same office 4 times a week..he does have this problem even now days, everyone who met him feels the same, hard to approched.. running a club doesnt have people skills?? how does it work???

Traines 5 times a week, on a strict diet with no carbs, sunday=cheat day, remember in st tropez, a Sat night dinner started late(now thinking of it, he planned it late). by 12am sunday morning, Alex went for it.... PIZZA!!!! A hair cut and a tan(fake, humm may be not, must be the mediterranean blood), to finish it lucky Alex has been transfromed by a super stylish stunding looking norwegian girlfriend.

Hundreds of words later not a nice word about him, why the hell im writing about Alex??

BECAUSE THE ALEX I  GOT TO KNOW, CARES! ALEX I KNOW IS A REAL FRIEND!

people now days dont believe a guy and a girl can be friends, people always think oppsite sex always end up having sex... I have no need to conform to the stereotypes other have defined for me... Im a tomboy, I always perfer cars than barbies, Red wine than champange..
Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn life around, with Aex thats what happened!!
As a boss, He is a HARD worker sets just the right example.. super good at what he is doing, the brian behinds it all, he taugh me how to become better at seeing the problems and act on it, no matter how much he doesnt like to be the person to speak to, he listens he cares, worries shows on his face, you can smell the heavy thoughts he is bearing from miles away.. He scares when he is doing a speech but he put on that brave face and brighten up the whole room, he taugh me many other things, watching him work makes me want to be like him!

As a friend, He is not very good at expressing his feeling hence we gave him the nickname CYBORG. He might not be a person who is good at communication, but sometimes communication doesnt need words, have you ever watch Hula Dancers and understood the story being told without one word? he makes me understand if we want to listen to everyone then we will have to take our turn, and let the smallest go 1st!! Its not what you say the most difficult, it is how we are going to live by it makes it hard! but he does live by it, he might seem careless from time to time, he has always live by what he said to me!!
He is not a truly passionate person, he devoted to his gym and would stop everything to go to the gym, he cares about his family and friends, and the north london flat that is not sudrounded by fancy restaurants or litter or vandalism, when he sees people who needs help, he care about each and everyone of them and try to help, in fact he care deeply about lots of things, but not with passion, or just dont know how to show it.. Well may b about his gym 'home house". He feels pain, my pain and other peoples pain, he laugh and cry but somehow the intensity of passion doesn's exit for him, to end on a positive note, i do know its in there somewhere in him, just waiting to be ignited...

Just because Alex doesnt know how to express himself sometimes it doesnt mean he doesnt care.. I care about Alex deeply, I was running the risk by doing that, but I have left an impact on him and it brought me happiness.........

Lets hope he is not going to kill me and still be my friend, if he ever going to read this, and see those photos i have choosen for this post!!!

LITTLEMISSSUNSHINE
xxx

GOODNEWS.COM: ME TIME

GOODNEWS.COM: ME TIME: "1st week back to work, Day time job!!! Almost forgot how it feels to finish work at 6PM daily... This is great!! Helena is here, she turned..."

ME TIME

1st week back to work, Day time job!!! Almost forgot how it feels to finish work at 6PM daily...

This is great!! Helena is here, she turned her head gave me a wink. Alex is here, typing on his computer, emotionless as usual... DRY! and the rest of the day team... yayyyyy!!! felt like i have never left. Put the violin away, and stop being like a drama queen now Shannon, its only been like less than a month..
No longer need to send Helena my Daily doctor reports, just Thyone now, one down one to go.... the 2 girls who I always selfishly dump all my bad news on 1st, the 2 girls who I see and feel love, care, worry, sadness, just from the look of their eyes....

By choice i would love to not say anything about my illness to anyone, certainly don't need everyone running after me with plans of Catching up...But then i will go crazy if i don't share the detail a little.. When u don't have disciplines, who is there to watch over and tell you off? those ones who cares, your family who knows what is happening. In my case those 2 are my family.. when I listen, (very rarely) then you know, I see you as my family.With the attitude to kill, ready to make changes, and make myself worthy. Positive, happy!!! I see the surprised faces in and out of the office, been offered all sort of catch up plans... Amazing, should get sick more often, see all the attentions I'm getting!!! I've talked and explained, what should people know is out in the air, feel lighter, better already.

Now lets catch up with my so called friends.... OK, Now, others are making the efforts and plans!!excited, i'm getting spoiled... hummmm....48 hours later..all i have been catching up its the empty promises and plans was never planned???? I know why, I'm not longer that easy going Shannon I once am, I'm not longer the organiser who make plans. for those who I know for longer, I understand everyone has a busy, different life, and a very different way of act on changes. I dont expect much form you, Its just a dinner YOU "planned" it, no decision in 48 hours, where are the efforts?? For those who I met no longer ago, as soon as I'm not the health me, you are not the same "friend".. Do you really need to make that "effort" to be my friend? Is it that hard?  I start to feel like that junk mail of viagra are becomg more of a friend to me, at least i know i have a daily visit from it whether i like it or not!!!

Please don't tell me you want to catch up over dinner when you cant even come up with a plan in 48 hours... please don't say you will be here, when you used to call, text and hangout but suddenly disappeared, please don't start our conversation about you and yourself... and can you help me on this and that, you haven't been in contact, but when you do you need something to be done................... even worst, booty call me at 3am on weekly basics!!

I am getting angry, Wow I thought the plan to work day time its for me to be close to my FRIENDS AND FAMILY.... Re a sad comment on my last post about selfish people...

Two qualities in friends that irritate me the most.. SELFISHNESS, THOUGHTLESSNESS. "friends" who have those qualities I dislike, they are also the 2 qulalitest that we all have, but some don't have them enough, I'd be feeling less angry if i did have more of them!! If I accepting my own selfishness, and my own thoughtlessness, and if i was OK with sharing my own dramas a bit more with the world, and with being centre of attention just little bit more, that i would be far less likely to be irritated when i see other who has those qualities too. Shame I care way too much...

My plan of talking to my best friend Sofia in south of France last for 3hours, Bea joined in, 3 of us had a blast, just like the old days!!!  We didn't have to say a word about me being sick....  all i needed was that simple company, that i will never ask or force anyone into it..

Why do i have so many "friends" when i was healthy? i asked... and look where are they now?  I was so sure making friends before you need them its the way too go!! Sofia's answer, baby you had so many people coming and going in your life i have lost track... time to recognised the good ones only...

True what she said, but I did meet Bea, Helen,Thyone and herself through a traffic of new people coming to my life!!! Real friends like them are the ones who walks in when others walks out... and trust me, I will live long enough to filter it.. I'm not even going to get mad anymore, clearly this was not what the doctor ordered.. I'm just going to learn to expect the lowest out of people i thought the highest of... and care about the ones who worth my love..

All i can say its that,Everything will be OK in the END, if it's not OK, it's not the END.

LITTLEMISSSUNSHINE
xxxx

GOODNEWS.COM: A THOUGHT THAT MAKES U HAPPY!

GOODNEWS.COM: A THOUGHT THAT MAKES U HAPPY!: "You see that little white box under this post says POST A COMMENT? This week I would LOVE all of you leave a thought that makes you happy a..."

A THOUGHT THAT MAKES U HAPPY!

You see that little white box under this post says POST A COMMENT?

I would LOVE all of you leave a thought that makes you happy and sad, make this place a place you can write whatever you want, express your feeling, let it run wild!! It can be totally Anonymous, I know how most of you are very SHY! unlike me... :))) I want to know what is it out there I'm missing out, WE are missing out!!! never too late to catch up.....

A close friend suggested that I should do this, he will be very happy now when he sees this!

LITTLEMISSSUNSHINE
xxx

Ok cant believe i have to do A HOW TO POST A COMMENT STEP BY STEP, for all my computer dummy friends.

1. post a comment( i hope you all know how to do that)
2. choose an option( SELECT PROFILE) from the box COMMENT AS  (most of your shy people will go choose anonymous)
3. now you can click preview to take a look yourslef 1st.
4. or click POST COMMENT.

VOILA!

GOODNEWS.COM: SPEECHLESS!

GOODNEWS.COM: SPEECHLESS!: "A true story One day a son asks his father: 'Daddy, will you run the marathon with me?' The father answers yes and both run their first mar..."

SPEECHLESS!

I dont think i can ever think of any of my problems after watching this....
There are no words to describe what you're about to see. It's all about HIM!

A Son asked his father, "Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?" The father who, despite having a heart condition, says "Yes". They went on to complete the marathon together. Father and son went on to join other marathons. The father always saying "Yes" to his son's request of going through the race together. One day, the son asked his fater, "Dad, let's join the Ironman together."

To which, his father said "Yes".

For those who don't know, Ironman is the toughest triathlon ever. The race encompasses three endurance events of a 2.4 mile (3.86 kilometer) ocean swim, followed by a 112 mile (180.2 kilometer) bike ride and ending with a 26.2 mile (42.195 kilometer) marathon along the coast of the Big Island.

Father and son went on to complete the race together!

http://youtu.be/OBjR1-0GVkI

GOODNEWS.COM: Smile when you are SAD, thats when you know you re...

GOODNEWS.COM: Smile when you are SAD, thats when you know you re...: " Happy Sunny weekend has come to the end... I have never felt so emotional till these days... My mood ..."

Smile when you are SAD, thats when you know you really had FUN!!

     Happy Sunny weekend has come to the end... I have never felt so emotional till these days... My mood swings are killing me...But surrounding by great group of people has make me seeing my life totally different! I'm not type of those chink who wears a masks when there is bird flu going around.. I live my life to the fullest and try to help my friends to do the same... 

I wrote my happiness list, below, after I had just found out what I am going to battle with in the next few years... I was a bit miserable. :-( But I could also see my happiness, and the Fun time i will have if i only remember these...

•               peanut butter sandwich with marmite and honey

•               listening to music, and a song from backstreet boys

•               smile at a stranger, and get a smile back

•               talking to a dog or cat, get a cuddle in return

•               singing out loud tunelessly in the shower, (my favourite A little respect by Wheatus)

•               Kiss the people i love

•               Dream of all the things i would do if i won the lottery, even if i haven't won anything, but the thoughts makes me happy!! 

now you should do yours and do your bit to fight the Credit Crunch and all that Dark and Sad in the world! Put a smile on your face, and on the faces of everyone else who reads your happiness list.

We don't have enough fun in our lives.. Fun is....... the pinch of salt that bring out the flavour, fun is....... the first date that makes your heart go faster, fun is........ share that tear of joy when you know its temporary end. In the other words, its not absolutely necessary that you have fun..... but life is better when you do... feel better, feel and do the stuff that really matters.

Stop hiding who you really are.. When it comes down to it, what do you stand for?!Always love yourself, what is not true shouldn't bother you. Start being intensely selfish, Get hungry for the things that are truly important to you. Think of the people you respect and love, the moments you relish, the impact you want to have, the legacy you want to leave. Bottom line: don't waste your time on anything else. When it come down to it, all you have is yourself. All the rest is nothing."

Stop following the rules, rules were made and meant to be break by us.. almost all of the rules are negotiable – someone just makes them up. It's no longer about what you can't do. It's about what you can do. If you follow all the rules, you miss all the fun.Start scaring yourself, Explore have fun!!! try things you normally said no to, the outrageous, and the unthinkable. go adventures.

Stop taking it all so damn seriously, "OMG" people like to shout that out loud... "what? what? who die" I love this answer of mine.. in 10 year, will you remember what you worry about? In 100 years, will anyone care? so lighten up, this will pass.. as i know that don't take life too seriously, we will not get out of it alive..Start getting rid of the crap...Think of all the thing that's bringing you down and getting in the way.Not just the things, but also the habits, the memories, the attitudes, the people. Get rid of that question marks what cloud your mind. we spend our life learning and building our knowledge by finding facts, but really?? facts can be seem in many many different ways.....




Stop being busy, Just because you sooo tired doesn't mean you're on the right track. If it's the wrong hole, you need to stop digging. Start something, It's time to do what you really want to do. Don't wait for permission.There are always enough reasons to wait just a little longer
, Get going on the stuff that matters, smile, smile and smile!!!

So i found myself a new way of making money, I have discovered that I'm a physic! let me see.... hummmmm OK you will die, but don't worry, you will live through it.. so now, time to have fun!!!!! 

Littlemisssunshine

xxxxx

Comme des enfants........

Always find it easy to help others problem, I found it difficult to talk about mine... evern worst i never talk about mine...

I use a picutre or a song, mostly a song to express my feelings at the time!!!

And thanks to Google, I dont even need to embarrassed myself with my french....

Fear of emotional Intimacy. who would ever want to admit to having this fear? and what is this deepest fear, anyway? how do know if you have it? hint : if you're a human being, then you probaly do!

But by admiting it, its one step closer to face it and find a sulotion to it. felt better already by writing about it... so i guess this is what is good about this blog... keeps me sane....

French

English

Alors tu vois, comme tout se mêle Et du cœur à tes lèvres, je deviens un casse-tête Ton rire me crie, de te lâcher Avant de perdre prise, et d’abandonner Car je ne t’en demanderai jamais autant Déjà que tu me traites, comme un grand enfant Nous n’avons plus rien à risquer À part nos vies qu’on laisse de coté Et il m’aime encore, et moi je t’aime un peu plus fort Mais il m’aime encore, et moi je t’aime un peu plus fort C’en est assez de ces dédoublements C’est plus dure à faire, qu’autrement Car sans rire c’est plus facile de rêver À ce qu’on ne pourra, jamais plus toucher On se prend la main, comme des enfants Le bonheur aux lèvres, un peu naïvement Et on marche ensemble, d’un pas décidé Alors que nos têtes nous crient de tout arrêter Il m’aime encore, et toi tu m’aimes un peu plus fort Mais il m’aime encore, et moi je t’aime un peu plus fort Et malgré ça, il m’aime encore, et moi je t’aime un peu plus fort Mais il m’aime encore, et moi je t’aime un peu plus fort MUSICAL INTERLUDE Encore, et moi je t’aime un peu plus fort Mais il m’aime encore, et moi je t’aime pas plus fort Malgré ça il m’aime encore, et moi je t’aime un plus fort Mais il m’aime encore, et moi je t’aime un peu plus fort REPEATS

So you see as everything gets mixed up From your heart to your lips, I become a headache (problem) Your laugh defies me to let you go Before losing hold and abandoning Because I would never ask you for that much You already treat me like a big child And we have nothing left to lose Except our lives, which we have set aside And he still loves me, and me I love you a little more But he still loves me, and me I love you a little more That’s enough of this splitting in halves It’s harder to do, otherwise Because without laughter it’s easier to dream Of what we can never again touch We take each others hands, like children The happiness on our lips, a bit naively And we walk together with a determined step While our heads yell at us to stop everything He still loves me, and you love me a little more But he still loves me, and me I love you a little more And despite this, he still loves me, and me I love you a little more But he still loves me, and me I love you a little more INTERLUDE MUSICALE Again, me I love you a little more But he still loves me, and me I love you a little more Despite this, he still loves me, and me I love you a little more But he still loves me, and me I love you a little more But he still loves me, and me I love you a little more RÉPÉTER

Littlemisssunshine


xxx

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Birds of a feather flock together!

Catching up on the phone with a friend today, Martin went on about how beautiful our friend suddenly became, I reply unpleasantly, "She could just lost weight, or grown up, or not any of that, may be she just tone down the make up or something little, She's got her good look from her father always anyway....... He is a plastic surgeon!" Oh My!! Nasty comment! There was no tone of joking there!

What is wrong with you? Where did this you come from?????  He then ask..

Quick Anger, Jealousy, worst way of thinking. I had a moment of low self esteem.. I worried and feared and lack of faith! Hold on... why did I take what Martin said so seriously, what did he said that's worth the comment anyway? Wasn't the insecure people? they r the one who show worries fears and lack of faith. Damn I  thought  I was doing so well.... Is it all just an act?

A lot of people who know me would indeed consider me to be a very confident, outgoing person, keep on facing myself, and to all of you, not just the nice part of u, often the most difficult ones. I've found friends who loves the confident me and never need them for approval, only "phony" friends would approve of me and give me attentions when I needed.. or Judge me for what I do, but cant give me a good reason of why and how!!

I would like to think I am happy with my life at least I am doing everything to make sure of that, It doesn't mean I'm never sad! I'm down all the time, but it lasts very briefly and then I'm up again, I know I can always find a way to change the result, there is a problem there is a solution, so why stay in the dark? I have never be the one that can just shut up, I disagreed all the time, but i ask and try to understand, I believe happy median will brighten up a bad day. I tend to be pioneer, fearless in my approach and my actions, I made mistake along the line ALL THE TIME, but I learnt from it, and earn confident.. I live my life to the most, do stupid things to challenge myself, I don't have limit  I express my feeling instead of paralysing my fears, insecure and non confident people talks about me, judges me complain about me. I get on with it, expect me to act on it first, I can be afraid later!! I take risks and make sacrifices and i have very little fear in living my life. That's why I smile, always I smile.

Now its clear where I had my bad manner this morning, From an email I woke up with, a friend comparing herself with my other friends, and her needs of catching up with me and my progress, all about I haven't done enough to make that happen, She blamed herself and others, she choose to blame, she reinforce that with even poorer thoughts... so no solutions, only problems!! To follow, from an other friend's Judgmental comment was given. First negative comment about my blog. He was telling me that i have given out too much personal information in my blog. OK, ask me why? if you don't know you can't use your nationality as an excuse for being judgmental. Judge instead of exchange ideas to get a good understanding ?? To put me down its a sign of Insecurity. Good news is that I still see them as friends and not the phony type.. but just not the ones I will choose to see anytime soon.

A hour after being grumpy, I picked up the phone and apologise.. I joked, "I''m always right, I have women's right! what have you got to say about that?" Martin then said "hummm I like women, Right and Left side!! the whole package!!! :)))))"

I have attracted the friendship of others who believe that they 'can', 'no stress,' I laugh and cry with them.. because they love themselves,  I love them even more, there with them, we generated an amazing positive energy! I often ask "why?" but I always say "why not" to other things to get an experience. Being next to great people make me feel that I, too, can become great, and greater!!!!!!!

Birds of a feather flock together. So Birdies lets go flock together and find our Oysters! because as the British Government said the world is Oyster! Hang on, Lets flock together to mine, I have 3 spare oyster cards!!!

Littlemisssunshine
xxx

Why do men like intelligent women? Because opposites attract.

Stole this picture from a friend,I laughed so hard,felt like re-writing it into a girls version so there you go.

Hi .

I'm A girl.

Here's how it goes.

I'm gonna flirt with you,

Then fell deeply in love with you,

Then waiting for the next step,

I'll introduce you to my best of friend,

And feel so Happy that you got on with Her,

I always listen,

But could not understand,

I get angry,

But make up sex is the best,

Next day

I tell all my friends how great you are,

But wont hear from you,

Then you came with your reasons,

I forgive and forget

And glad I am the one you choose to talk to,

or I truly believe that you are Mr Right, ( now there are 2 different ending)

The best part is                                                                        The best part is

When I find out your 1st name is Always.                              You fall in love with me deeply

To make it special for me on Valentine's day,                         Propose on Valentine's days

I'll tie you up in bed.                                                               We tie the wedding knot.

And go watch whatever TV series I want with our dog!        Get 2 dogs nd named them Aston nd Martin

HA HA!

Silly I know!
Personally I don't like now days dating system, and the waiting dying inside to get that Title of MS means Miserable to me.... everyday I feel for my heart broken friends, the millions of the question marks from their relationship.. To boost you confident, Secret of a long relationship is, take time to go on dates 2 times a week, A little candlelight, dinner, good wine. U go Friday, and your partner goes Saturday!

Not a post that will make everyone happy!! But hey, rather you hate me for who I am, then Love me for who I'm not!!!

To sums up, Clever people knows how to love themselves, We must love our self before we love another, By being who we are, simply can make people happy!!! Do you want to meet the love of your life? look in the mirror!!!! 

Littlemisssunshine
xxxx

Anger management.

1st Doctor David told me the GOOD NEWS, I was going to have a disease named after me! 2nd, this result kind of got me thinking and remember the dying orchid that's in his house!Should i really be listen to u now David? when you cant even look after a plant! 3rd he told me that jogging could tired me out, yeah yeah my friend Ed told me that too... but David said did you know that jogging could add years to your life! yea I went for a run, I think he was right, I feel 10 years OLDER!!!!!

What is wrong with me today!! wake up on the wrong side of the bed!!! I know why, since I had lost my sense of smell, I have been sleeping with CAT PEE for the last 3 nights!!! 5 am in the morning what is a normal person doing? Rest, Sleep!! Me, washing my duvet, bed sheet, everything!!!!!

After 3 hour sleep in a blanket, thank god for my powerful heating system!!!I'm in good hand! Why am I feeling so cold, 9am in the morning, my throat is killing me, and my neck!!!! Ochhh!!!!

SYLVIA!!!!!!!!! Flatmate switched off the heating, when she saw me doing washing and got to know what was going on! Hello, cheap labour here, an Asian working in this under ground sweat shop not getting pay here, and u think you need to cut cost on the energy too??? OK Shannon, when you angry, count to four, If it doesn't work, when you are really angry, swear!!!!  Bloody bankers!!!

Sylvia worried but said, what is wrong with Casper(her cat), He loves you so much!! Err, OK OK, I think tomorrow I will go to all of your flat and pee on your beds, and leave a note that says I LOVE YOU! start with you Sylvia!!!! GRRRRRRRRRR  

What are the 2 healthiest things I told to be eaten? Chicken and fish.... you know what I can do? combine them, eat penguin, hummm if I can eat penguin, I might be able to think of a Casper dish, well I'm Asian right? We eat everything!  Friends you are all welcome!!

ANGER MANAGEMENT TODAY

1. When you are angry, SPEAK, you will do the best speech!

2. If you are angry at a loved one, hug that person. and mean it. you may not want to hug- which is all the more reason to do so, It's hard to stay angry when someone shows they love you (like Sylvia said Casper loves me), and that's precisely what happens when we hug each other....


3. I have not been the easiest person to deal with, I had so much anger in me, but I taught myself never not to be angry, but its how to be angry!!!

ANGER is one letter short of DANGER! I am a Capricorn I like to be safe!!!

Deep breath! 1, 2 , 3, 4....Lets start again... HAPPY DAY!!

littlemisssunshine
ps..no kisses today( if there is, it will be fake. real ones coming tomw)

Life It's a Beach!

Sun is out shinning, birds are singing, cherry blossom are blooming, spring is here! Vacations!!!


My Doctor David is going on a 10 days vacation with his kids, Ed is going on a month vacation in somewhere hot "forgot where,may be out of jealousy", his girlfriend Thyone is meeting him half way. These are the people I have spent everyday with for the last month!!! What am i going to do without them?

Don't remember much of a vacation when i was young, so now days when I see kids on the beach, i get jealous. Kids don't need a vacation, what are they doing on the beach, they haven't worked a day in their life!!!! but then Now days, We work so hard, we almost have no time to play!!

A reply Re my last post, "if you work hard you want to enjoy the fruits of your labour in the places you enjoy most whether its a shisha cafe on edgware road or nozomi, the only constant should be the quality of the company." Can't say it better than you Farah! 

Alex my best friend had come up a master plan for me to work less and get pay, so I wont be poor after this cancer journey..Helena is lining up a little side project to keep me busy! I asked a question about a bottle of white wine to a friend Luca, 2 mins later he told me that he found the bottle, and ordered a prestigious one for me on way!! Nolan, the Gallery owner of pop up, sat me down and taught me being good and nice to people, a simple Principal of life, that I have seem to left behind!

I live my life on a beach, enjoying the little things what brings me sunshine, swimming in the sea of great friendship... Doctor David, Edouard,Thoyne, there are plenty of fish in the sea!!! and i have already found them right beside me, David please pretend you didn't read this, Thyone and Ed i will drink my prestigious white wine with my new best friends!!! go on your well deserve vacation, you have my permission!!! I'm not jealous at all! :))) 

Littlemisssunshine

xxx

There are so many girls, and so few Princes!! Where are the Je Ne Sais Qu?!!!

South Ken/Chelsea, An area in London where people live in a high light! All the Europe trash, old money posh Brits, French bankers, Sloaney ponys. You will find all the beautiful looking singlers lives here in this over rated area.

Here is all about which Chanel bag you are carrying, and which Lamborghini you drive. One Chanel is not enough, do you have the new season in 3 different colours, to go with it, few pair of Louboutins....Lamborghini in black is cool, but do you have few more sitting on the street outside of you rented flat instead of in the garage?

Ohh yes, To get a table in a flash restaurant you need to wear your biggest Rolex and pretend you are checking time while you talking to the super hot maitre D'. When the sun is out, queuing for hours to get a lower average over price meal at Chelsea farmer's market is a must, why? because we are all too hangover from the weekend nights out and find each other too boring to talk to, instead we go people watching discover the same people who end up at the same places over the weekend are living in the same area!!! or we have the choice of heading to Jake's, where 2 years ago £10 we eat till we explode, now 3 times of the price, we are sitting with the blink blink, smell the strongest perfume, unless you are size 0, you wont make it to squeeze out of the small table next to you..

And now I listen to girls complain, they don't understand why they are single???? And boys asking about where are the girls who ticks all the boxes? The Girl they are "sleeping with", few of them on the go actually, but its very important to find out ASAP they are not gold diggers and most importantly a brainy. But the bigger the cup size, fuller the lips looked, the blonder it gets, will be a win win situation! Pay attention here now... reason i don't use the word "girlfriend" here is because not many of these girls will last more than months.

After my Sunday lunch with the boys, walking down Walton street alone, "OMG Shannon you look amazing, you look so skinny, how did you lose so much weight?" 3 different boys i run into has told me that! ERR do you have any idea how I lost weight? why don't you get yourself a cancer and try? so now you notice me, I'm not the chubby Shannon that you use to call for a table in the club anymore! suddenly I'm attractive because I'm 17kg lighter within 5 weeks! BTW just so you know I'm still the flat chested chink, who loves all the good food and wine in life! Have you by any chance notice any of those things you cant SEE?

SENDING OUT JUST THE RIGHT MESSAGE EVEN ON A BUS!

Hang on a second? Perhaps I'm losing my point here, I think I'm talking about girls find it hard to meet the right guy to fell in love with. OK lets start again, busy life style, find it hard to meet new people? lets go online dating, at least you know what your intentions are, you need to write it on the website before you join, so that makes it all perfect then! Which website shall we go? I know one! sugerdaddie.com!! the name of the website says it all!!!!!!!!

Helena my Greek sister, This little kitten has the attitude of a tiger, no one will ever see that before knowing her!my kind of boyish girl, who worked in fashion to cover the tom boy side! down to earth, a great listener! Tough life experience brought us together and grow deeper..She didn't go buy herself a Chanel bag or sitting at Chelsea farmer to wait for her prince charming, She just simply a caring amazing girl who found her Prince Ben, the Frog.

Thyone my other Greek friend, introduced by Helena. Who works in a hospital helping people for life.. Cases she has to deal with, stories she has from her patients, mind blowing!! A patients told her on Fri before she ends her shift, that he will kill himself if she leaves the hospital for the weekend!Little Blondie has to bring home the thought that she might be the reason of a death... This beautiful soul has been next to me every step of my illness, an other amazing girl who found her Prince Ed, the Frog.

They are living in the area, they are not single! yayyyy there is hope!!! Both girls might not have Chanel bags both boys might not have Lamborghini! Who, being loved, is poor???

Girls are like stars, there are so many of us, but there is only one for you to make your dream come true! There comes a time in every rightly constructed boy's life that he has a raging desire to go somewhere and dig hidden treasure! you love someone for who they are, u love some one from what you see inside, not how they looks and what cars they drive! love is saying "i feel differently" instead of "you are wrong", love is when 2 people sit in the middle of bed when there is plenty of room around you. Be the hidden treasure for you boyfriend!!!

Santa is a happy man because he knows where all the bad girls live, but good news is, there is only one Santa!  Girls.... learn from 2 of my beautiful friends... There are plenty of Frogs lives in the area! Find the one that love you for who you are, and find that Prince who has the Je Ne Sais Quo!

littlemisssunshie

xxxxx

Will GOOD BYE ever be easy?

Where is the 'GOOD' in good-bye?We were born to say Hello to the world, naked wet and hungry, and things just gets worst.. and saying good bye to life its the end what we can never avoid.. If i have the choice of not to say good bye ever, I will do anything.. I mean it... ANYTHING, to get that choice!

Nick gold's Champagne Rain tradition has back fire on himself and he seems to enjoy it!! 

Nick Gold, a dear friend/ boss/ older brother, who is moving to Vegas. We spend so much time together at work and off duty, I was even invited and spent my bday /xmas with him and his family last year!!! How do i describe him? Hummm oily greasy gel ed hair, hang on, wasn't he's finally got a hair cut? looking rather dashing... Well... for Vegas of course... effort was made for others, We r just not special enough anymore.. feel so used and abused here Goldie!!!! Great sense of dress, think old fashion English tailor made suits and colour matching socks. little man-kerchief here or there, His attention to detail is immaculate, in fact "immaculate" I have learnt this word from him!

Nick was just this boss who 1000% sober for over 7 yrs! boring/ no fun right? sober in a business where is a Candy shop for drunks!??? I have a strong personality who will always find her own way at things, Nick is the only one at work i wont go try with, because I know when a drunk want to get her way with a sober person???? pig will fly!! Nick become a person i look forward to see even if i cant have my way often with him! His dark sense of humor, his ability of making plans and get people together, and i even look forward to find that disappoint look when he sees me drunk! that's how i got to know he cares! cares too much sometimes... every time nick come back from holidays i will have a present! Its almost like we work and spend time together is not enough, i was in his mind when he is away!!! but that's nick for you,its all about others, what other wants and needs.. there is no need to repeat yourself, once, he remember and he Will never forget!

The thought of not having him when i walk into the office again kills me... Thought of I will miss the dinner plan he used to make to bring people closer! His little jokes makes heavy issues suddenly seems all so light! the connection between any group! His voice, his laugh.Will even miss The fart-er and burp-er!!! Who i love, we all love!i could go on forever about the good and bad of this guy! but i know a friend like Nick no matter where he is i wont lose him.. he will b still getting on that phone everyday nd check on me!

life in a game of scissors papers and rock. This round.Scissors(nick) paper (good bye) rock(me). I understand that scissor can beat paper, and  I get how rock can beat sissor, but there is no way paper can beat rock!!! paper is supposed to magically wrap around rock leaving it immobile?why the hell cant's paper do this to scissor? Screw papers!! i will tell you paper cant beat anyone! when i play the game, i always win with rock!if anyone claims to beat me with their paper, i can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say" I am sorry, i thought paper would protect you"!!

Now, I don't want the choice of not to say good bye ever, I have changed my mind! Being strong some times meaning being let go.The best things said come last. people will talk for hours saying nothing much and them linger at the door with words that come with a rush from the heart.... I love that feeling. i love how, going to be apart makes u see the good of everything/everyone abit more!

Every goodbye makes the next hello closer with people like Nick, who I have grown to love, for the memories we have made will last a lifetime and never know a good bye, don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened!!  YES, Goodbye can be easy!!  When i know How lucky I am to have known someone who was so hard to say good bye to!

Will always love you Goldie!

littlemisssunshie
xxxx