Tuesday 31 May 2011

Young forever

I stopped to get some dinner in Waitrose on the way to a friend's flat, as i was in line waiting to pay, found a 6 or 7 year old girl with her mum in front of me who had reach what seemed to be the most dramatic point of her life, I couldn't help but listen to this red faced and puffy-eyed little girl crying talking, "I'm not in a good mood today" in which her mum replied " oh... that's not good sweetheart.." "yeah" she said " i just found out that my friend has been telling everyone that i don't like Barbie, and i totally DO like Barbie this year, so then i asked her why she was telling everyone that i didn't, and she called me a lair."now anyone can imagine how horrible this must be for that poor little girl... to have everyone thinking that she doesn't like Barbie, so of course the mum responded with an understanding "well that's not very nice at all" "no.." she said...as they took their turn at the cashier... i was behind chuckling to myself and thinking "oh.. to be a kid again"

I was pretty tough on a friend who was not feeling the best after a night out.... misunderstood a situation and read into it too far... a mistake a child would never made, silent treatment was given, and i was feeling low...I planned a busy day so i don't have to think about it any further, met up with friends watched a movie i was clearly not going to sit till the end to kill time.
I remember when i was a kid, things were pure and innocent, because i didn't know any better, when people, all people were good and nice.. when i have a terrible fight with a friend, then a kiss and a hug will make things all better after a good cry... watch TV for fun, not for killing time and escape from reality.. playing on the street where we knew we'd be safe but didn't know what to be afraid of. fall asleep at night without a care in the world except for look forward the yummy breakfast mum is going to cook in the morning..We were happy to get an ice cream from the pocket money that we get....

I wish things could be just as simple...9pm still i heard nothing from this so called friend!! I wanted to throw this friendship away and called it an end... drama queen Shannon has awaken... then again I desperately wish i could turn the time back, so i could do less thinking, just be nice, let go and have a good day...

life is complicated, It starts before we're ready, it continues while we're still trying to figure out the point of it, and it ends before we've worked out just what to do.... Me few years ago will go through life beating myself up, and thinking negatively when conditions turns sour. Shutting down when times get hard, and not fighting our natural tendency to just give up, but i have learnt that i want to live my life and i don't want to shut down, I must laugh instead of cry, love someone when it is very easy to hate..stop making problems bigger than it is...be just like when we were kids, easy to be pleased....

Friends are families in my life.. There is no way i will let this one goes... Few nice heart felted messages was sent by me, I throw my pride away.. demand a reply and trying make the best out of a bad situation.. At the end of the day i got to talk my way back to this friendship... I'm smiling, and ready to go to bed happy...

We all have things that we'd want to go back and do again, but the truth is, we can't. We have to live in the now and do what we can to make the best of what we have. If you stop and think back to what you did when you were younger, some of it makes a lot of sense today. A lot of it was really stupid and sure, we have a lot more to worry about these days, but it's all the same stuff. Just stop for one moment in time and make it yours. Live it. Be the moment. Think about what is important to you and think about what it really is that you want... It's not that hard if you just try, it could be just as simple as when you were younger.

littlemisssunshine
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